Hi. This is Spencer and this is Spencer Reads. And I am reading Freeing Finch and I'm up to chapter 5.
It's written by Ginny Roby and if you'd like to read along or if you'd like to buy this book, there's a link here that you can click on.
OK. You can also go back in listen to the other chapters, in our section on Unpretending’s Substack called Spencer Reads.
Chapter 5, number 1…
Transcript of Chapter 5 is omitted
… and that is the end of chapter 5.
That was a real short chapter, I don't know what to say much about it. Other than how horrible it is that she had fallen and, like how long it had been since she was just lying there. How scary that would be, like hoping and hoping someone will come to-to rescue her. I bet she knew that Finch would come eventually. She's pretty clever, knowing that she broke her arm and her hip.
We sometimes climb lots of things, us and these people in this body they do, but they have to be very careful, 'cause they they've been getting old in their body and uh it's…, they don't have as much balance, I think that's what happens when your body gets old. And the problem is, if you’re like old and you fall out of a tree and you break your leg…, well these people here, they got a lot of stuff to do and they don't have time to break their leg - not that we ever broke it leg before, or-our-or-our hands or arms or nothing like that.
You know what I think is a real good thing? That the paramedic, asked Finch if she was Maddie's gran-ah-granddaughter, that's really cool that she got recognised as a girl. When we were young, really young, much younger than Finch, people always used to think we were a boy even though we're in a girl’s body. Our Mum had out haircut real short 'cause her dad made her hair real long hair and long plats (braids) all the time and so she didn't want us to have that experience, so she had our hair cut like a boy. I had freckles. I just look like a boy. I didn’t like being called a boy 'cause I wasn't.
Also I don’t know why, but we had all these like boy clothes. When our grandparents came, there were a couple of dresses, I just look at that in photos, that’s how I know. That's how I know we always got a new dress if our grandparents were coming, my mum made out clothes sometimes by the time I was like 7 or 8. But, I guess these days it doesn't matter so much, these days it doesn’t matter at all because even though I'm my age, this body is an old person's body, so they-they just….
We never get to look like us, even if we look in the mirror. I look like me and my inside of my head. When I look in the mirror, I'm not me at all. That's a bit confusing and I don't get it, but I guess it's just the way it goes.
Anyway, this has been Spencer, and I think I dissociated a little bit during that 'cause I think I didn't read all of it. I think some of it, someone else came and read a little bit of it. Sometimes I start thinking about stuff and I-I I'm not there so much anymore.
Anyway, it has been Spencer and someone else maybe, but not Someone Else 'cause Someone Else is South East, and I don't know.
But ah, this is Spencer Reads and thank you for coming to Unpretending’s Substack and Chapter 6 and I really wanna read it pretty much soon so we know what's happening. And please, like commit and share and subscribe. And, hope you have a really lovely day and this is Nala, say, “Hi Nala, (Nala Kisses) I like you too”. Bye, bye
Unpretending Spontaneous is the name used by a Multiple System from Australia, the technical term is currently called DID - Dissociative Identity Disorder. This blogcast is our journey as we attempt to function well in society as a multiple while healing from our traumatic past.